His skin now has a yellowish hue as do the whites of his lovely blue eyes. The skin on his legs and feet is pulled so tight that it’s starting to crack. This lifetime athlete now has to stop to catch his breath after walking from one room to the next, and we are still seeking a good solution for controlling the pain. The word that comes to mind is impossible. A month ago we were at a reptile show. And going out to lunch. And taking the dogs for long meandering walks through the woods. I have this overwhelming feeling that we haven’t done all the things that we were supposed to do.
Now there are oxygen tanks and a hospital bed. Hospice has been out twice going over medicines and symptoms. I cannot wrap my mind around all of this. Impossible.