I just got home from the funeral home. Dave would have hated it so much. He would have definitely cracked a joke about the guy’s soft spoken tone. Dave’s mom had the incredible strength to deal with all the details. I couldn’t bear it and had to leave. Dave was absolutely anti-funeral. He told me he didn’t want people standing around crying over him. So, instead, he asked me to throw a big party celebrating life with everyone having a good time and sharing funny stories. I am not sure when that will happen, but it will definitely happen.
In the last few weeks, when I just can’t deal (like today), I put on my earphones and listen to music loudly. My playlist has Eminem, Iggy Azalea, Imagine Dragons. One song that I discovered is by Sara Bareilles called I Choose You. It reminds me of our relationship – especially these lyrics.
We are not perfect
We’ll learn from our mistakes
And as long as it takes I will prove my love to you
I am not scared of the elements
I am under-prepared, but I am willing
And even better I get to be the other half of you
Tell the world that we finally got it all right.
I choose you.
I am so thankful for the 22 years that I got to be the other half of you, Dave. I love you.